its been more than a month since i did my thesis defense, and for once, i feel like my mind and body gets lighter since there's nothing to worry about anymore, academically. back then in my hustling days of finishing my thesis i've dreamed a lot about the life that i get to encounter after i graduate. it excites me how much free time that i get to spend to build my career and my life and do activities that i like and just grow as a person to my fullest potential without having to worry about anything since i already have 'a job' long before i apply for college (that's what most of my friends are worrying about).
so recently, i've been doing exactly what i intended before. i started to walk around my neighborhood every afternoon and trying to make it a healthy habit (i've hit 10k steps a few days ago!) and im super proud of myself i cannot believe i actually did that. i also continue to finish the interior of my studio and kinda dive deeper to my plans once its fully furnished. recently i also try to be more discipline with myself, starting from the very basics: stick to the skincare routine that i've had always failed to do for so long, drink more water (easy peasy), and just basically spend my day to day with things that makes me feel productive even if its just as simple as this basic routines. as someone who's not so into routines and all things related to being discipline, it shook me somehow that this actually works. it makes me feel better about myself. like i could finally conquer one of my worst enemy: the lazy and go-with-the-flow version of me who had control my life for the past 22 years.
i learned from ashley from bestdressed (on youtube) that one of the missing thing that happened to us all on our post-grad life is that, there's no longer some specific goals in our life and we tend to feel like we're just floating around, not really sure about the state of our own mind. back then, we were given some 'goals' that ensure us that if we could meet it, it brought us to the next chapter in our life: by passing exams, graduate school, finishing thesis, graduate college--and well, as strange as it may sounds, those goals keeps us alive. mostly for those goal-driven type of person (thats me).
therefore, this gotta be the time when i could only rely to myself to create some goals for me, no matter how small they are. of course i've had some plans and 'big goals' to achieve (mostly career related) but well if it isn't because of the freaking pandemic i'd definitely go for that in a full spirit mode. so yeah. this is the best possible thing that i can do, for now.
just wanna share it here to remind my future self that i made it once. there's nothing that we cannot do if we put our mind to it. always remember that the only limit is our mind.
and please, don't forget to enjoy your current self while working on the version of yourself that you wanna achieve. be happy, be grateful. always remember the small successes and remember that Allah will always give the best for us at the most right time.
with big love energy,
Nedita
